Interview with Louise, 20, White British, working class, Fundamental Christian. Women, Risk and AIDS Project, Manchester, 1989. Anonymised version (Ref: USD06)

This interview is part of the Women, Risk and Aids Project (1989-90) archive which was created as part of the Reanimating Data Project (2018-20).Anonymised transcript of an interview with Louise, 20, who works full time. She would have liked to continue with her education after leaving school, but her parents could not afford it. Her mum does not hold too many strict traditional values, but would like Louise to have a 'white wedding', but wait until she is financially secure before having children. Louise's dad has some Catholic values, Louise attends a Baptist church but is not too strict in upholding certain religious ideas around marriage and sexuality. She had some basic sex education at school, but found it quite nerve-wracking and prefers to read it in books at her own pace instead. She had her first at age 16, with her male partner as they were breaking up - she felt her virginity was something 'special' that she could give him. This was considered late to have her first sex within her peer group, but she did not feel any pressure to lose her virginity. She did not use any contraception as her first sex was unplanned, but she is now on the pill. Her best friend became pregnant at 15 due to condom failure, which resulted in a late term abortion. Louise doesn't consider herself a risk taker, but has some contradictory ideas around risk, sex and protection - she carries her own condoms, but does not always feel comfortable using them. She feels there is some stigma around visiting special clinics for STD testing and would like it to be more easily accessed. There is a general attitude among her peer group that it is easier to talk about protection against pregnancy rather than against AIDS, as asking a sexual partner about AIDS assumes a level of promiscuity in their sexual history. Louise thinks AIDS campaigning on TV and in the news had too much of a fear mongering element to it, and would like to see campaigns that give women confidence and support to navigate their sexuality in a healthy way. She has fairly liberal attitudes towards casual sex and female sexual pleasure, and largely derives her own sexual pleasure from male enjoyment in (hetero)sexual relationships and through oral sex. However, she believes sex needs to be penetrative for it be fully enjoyed, especially for males.本次访谈隶属于《女性、风险与艾滋病项目（Women, Risk and Aids Project，1989-1990）》档案，该档案系《活化数据项目（Reanimating Data Project，2018-2020）》的组成部分。以下为受访者路易丝（Louise）的匿名化访谈转录文本，她现年20岁，为全职工作者。她原本希望中学毕业后继续深造，但父母无力承担相关费用。她的母亲并未秉持过多严苛的传统价值观，但希望路易丝能举办一场"白色婚礼"，并建议她在经济稳定后再生育子女。路易丝的父亲带有部分天主教教义观念，她本人则受洗于浸信会教堂，但并未严格恪守与婚姻、性相关的部分宗教教条。她在校期间接受过基础的性教育，但当时感到十分窘迫，因此更倾向于通过自行阅读书籍了解相关知识，可自主把控学习节奏。她的首次性行为发生在16岁，对象是当时的男性伴侣，彼时两人正处于分手阶段——她认为自己的贞洁是一份可以赠予对方的"珍贵之物"。在她的同龄群体中，首次性行为的年龄算偏晚，但她并未感受到任何需要失去贞洁的压力。首次性行为因计划之外未采取任何避孕措施，但她目前已开始服用短效避孕药。她的挚友在15岁时因安全套破裂意外怀孕，最终接受了晚期引产手术。路易丝并不认为自己是爱冒险的人，但在风险、性行为与防护方面存在一些矛盾的观念：她会随身携带安全套，却并不总能坦然地使用它们。她认为前往专门的性病诊疗机构就诊带有一定污名化色彩，希望这类服务能更易于获取。她所在的同龄群体普遍认为，谈论避孕措施以预防怀孕比谈论预防艾滋病更为容易——因为向性伴侣询问艾滋病相关情况，会被默认对方在性史方面存在滥交行为。路易丝认为，电视与新闻中的艾滋病宣传过多带有恐吓色彩，她希望能看到更多能够帮助女性建立自信、以健康方式探索自身性需求的宣传活动。她对随性性行为与女性性愉悦持有相当开放的态度，在异性性关系中，她主要通过伴侣的愉悦感受以及口交行为获得自身的性快感。但她认为，性行为需要以插入式性交为基础才能获得完整的体验，尤其是对男性而言。